on a similar note

lol pet peeve but we really need to stop making Trump jokes and / or remarks against Trump supporters if we aren’t sufficiently aware of what’s actually going down in the US or if we’re generally uninformed!

here are some voting stats:

  • 29% of Hispanics / Latinos
  • 8% of blacks
  • 29% of Asians
  • 37% of other, non-white racial demographics
  • 10% of liberals
  • 42% of women

… all voted Trump! despite his racist, xenophobic and misogynistic rhetoric! why? ask why!!!!!!!! find out why!!

PS i’m not angry or triggered or trying to be condescending, just slightly exasperated, if anything, lol.


the importance of conversation in our present climate

About two months ago, circa Pink Dot, a certain article published on Medium was circulating: I’m a transgender in Singapore, and I don’t support Pink Dot. I’m always intrigued by less popular schools of thought / perspectives that contrast with what’s typically anticipated of millennial liberalism, and the title certainly sounded promising — the article itself, unfortunately, was not. This fantastically written response piece sums my dissatisfaction up appropriately: “the [original article’s] writer’s views are not wrong, only incomplete and perhaps myopic.”

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moon river


a fortnight ago [redacted] & i spoke of love and loneliness. we always do, and for good reason: we understand each other. she knows what it’s like to get so pointlessly, absurdly, intensely infatuated for months on end it becomes unhealthy and borders on obsession (or maybe the latter bit is just me… two times too many). she both panders to, and rejects, the gripe and thrust of that infatuation the way i have before, and presently, as a preventive measure, refuses its Entry Into Being the way i do and would now, lest either of us remotely entertain its jarring company and have it disrupt our current internal state of affairs — hallmarked by peace. she’s been through the turmoil and experienced firsthand the Clash of the Titans (Feeling and Rationality), and is, or will be, more cautious now, when entering the court.

i. loving

can you love?

—intimacy scares me, i said.

me too.

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(i think i posted the link a while back, but whatever:) ask.fm has become slightly annoying because of new regulations (like, now if you want to ask a question, you’re required to have an account, even if you’re asking anonymously), and, for the most part, it’s passé now (although i do still get very irregular, unexpected asks!). sooo i’ve turned to curious cat, out of boredom & the love to talk, lol. if you have questions about anything (i am 100% aware that i’ve been super inactive on this space lately, in terms of posting stuff… haaaa), need suggestions or just a chat, want to leave a message, or whatever, find me on the link below. ❤


Over six cuts of salmon sashimi priced far above their worth — not the least bit buttery, and far too thin, but I try to save it with sauce and wasabi — my mom, privately, takes a pause from our silence with a halted hand and, not unprecedentedly, confesses: redacted, redacted, redacted, redacted, redacted. (I put all in brackets, like I do this statement in parentheses.)

It’s not a big deal, I say, and mean it, because it isn’t, now. It was then. But so what? We’ve moved on. We’re in a good place. Everything that happened, happened, and was necessary. Okay, maybe not necessary, but everything happened in unchangeable actuality, and so what’s to do, other than to face who we all are and all that we all have today, at present?

I apply this to every other aspect I can manage to the best of my abilities. What is there to be done — but to do?

feels as though i am always so choked up with emotion (whenever i’m alone) i might one day implode! tonight (night, i say, at 4:27am, ha!), that emotion is love — and i do, a lot. spent two hours on a subreddit, then had a talk with megs, which i am sometimes quite bad at because she is very Aware so a lot of the times it feels as though my advice is Null and Already Thought Of (though by no means a fault of either of us!! it just is what is!!), but i was quite giddy on an arbitrary wave of happiness and positivity and felt even better afterwards. checked wordpress and saw soph’s Memory post. remembered the warmth of school (soph always brings me joy somehow!) and now i am going to bed happier than ever. looking forward to my dreams tonight.

(i know i don’t usually do this. but today’s events — which honestly didn’t comprise much — and, i suppose, my very unpredictable temperament have both been very kind to me. which is rare. i am in good spirits.)